On finding/not finding the "dream come true"
I vividly remember sitting on a plane from Austin to OC, right around this time about 2 years ago. It was a red eye flight, my friend Emily was fast asleep, and I was struggling not to cry.
I wanted SO BADLY to KNOW that Austin was where I belonged. But I didn't have the feeling that I expected to have when I found the right place for me.
A UT visit, a tour, some quintessential ATX sightseeing. It was fun! But, when it came to choosing a grad school, I could already tell there would be things that I wouldn't love about UT. I was hoping I would arrive, go on the tour, ask some questions, and leave feeling like - this place is a dream come true! I wanted to feel so sure, so convinced. I think it's what we imagine landing square in the midst of God's will for us will feel like. No hesitations, just right. But it didn't feel that way, and I had to make a decision anyway.
Fast forward 2 years and I can tell you that I am convinced - Austin WAS God's will for me. Austin WAS exactly where I belonged. Austin WAS the right decision.
So I wonder, why doesn't God always give that feeling? That this-is-perfect-for-me-what-a-dream-come-true feeling? He easily could have, so I would've had no doubts in choosing Austin.
Why is it, that even sometimes when we're placed EXACTLY where God wants us, that we don't get the overwhelming feeling that it is, in fact, exactly where God wants us?
It's my guess that's where obedience comes in - being obedient to think thoroughly through a decision, to pray, to seek counsel from Scripture and people, and to simply trust that God will work in the decision, even if it's not the most clear and obvious and shrouded in unwaivering assurance.
In the process of interviewing for a job, I'm finding a funny reoccurrence that reminds me so much of where I was two years ago. I have yet to interview at a place that feels like the perfect fit, but that doesn't mean I haven't interviewed at the place where God will want me to work for the next year. And while part of me craves the feeling of being sure, I've also seen God's faithfulness FAR exceed my expectations as I make semi-uncertain decisions that I pray will glorify him.
I wanted SO BADLY to KNOW that Austin was where I belonged. But I didn't have the feeling that I expected to have when I found the right place for me.
A UT visit, a tour, some quintessential ATX sightseeing. It was fun! But, when it came to choosing a grad school, I could already tell there would be things that I wouldn't love about UT. I was hoping I would arrive, go on the tour, ask some questions, and leave feeling like - this place is a dream come true! I wanted to feel so sure, so convinced. I think it's what we imagine landing square in the midst of God's will for us will feel like. No hesitations, just right. But it didn't feel that way, and I had to make a decision anyway.
Fast forward 2 years and I can tell you that I am convinced - Austin WAS God's will for me. Austin WAS exactly where I belonged. Austin WAS the right decision.
So I wonder, why doesn't God always give that feeling? That this-is-perfect-for-me-what-a-dream-come-true feeling? He easily could have, so I would've had no doubts in choosing Austin.
Why is it, that even sometimes when we're placed EXACTLY where God wants us, that we don't get the overwhelming feeling that it is, in fact, exactly where God wants us?
It's my guess that's where obedience comes in - being obedient to think thoroughly through a decision, to pray, to seek counsel from Scripture and people, and to simply trust that God will work in the decision, even if it's not the most clear and obvious and shrouded in unwaivering assurance.
In the process of interviewing for a job, I'm finding a funny reoccurrence that reminds me so much of where I was two years ago. I have yet to interview at a place that feels like the perfect fit, but that doesn't mean I haven't interviewed at the place where God will want me to work for the next year. And while part of me craves the feeling of being sure, I've also seen God's faithfulness FAR exceed my expectations as I make semi-uncertain decisions that I pray will glorify him.
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