Confession #13: I'm learning more lessons than I can keep up with!
The whole idea of the blog is to write about the lessons the Lord is teaching me as he teaches them to me. Throughout most of my life I've had the benefit of looking back and reflecting every couple of months. Now, I feel as if I must reflect on a biweekly basis to catch all of the lessons I'm being taught!
Early September:
When I last posted, I was passing a kidney stone. I had the chance to reflect on that experience and can say that I am profoundly grateful for everything that came of it. There are so many little ways in which God showed me mercy -- that the stone was smaller than they had originally thought, that I got to take a few days off work, that this is not a "lie in bed" but rather "get up and walk around" kind of ailment, that so many people offered to love and take care of me.
The weeks that followed have been filled with more experiences and more lessons.
Late September:
I had a day that was the worst day in a long time --a morning just filled with non-stop anxiety where I was FIGHTING to fix my eyes on Jesus. I felt that I couldn't do it, I felt overwhelmed and exhausted, and to make matters worse, my boyfriend also had one of the worst days he had had in a long while too (which was a lesson in its own rite of encouraging when you're feeling you have nothing to give).
My roommate was a complete encouragement. She reminded me that Jesus is no stranger to my weakness. Not only did he humble me and save me at my weakest and most broken point (or else I would have had no recognition that I needed a Savior!), but as the perfect God-man he knew exactly what it was like to have a physical body that was exhausted. I can then turn to him and offer him all I have even IN my weakness instead of feeling completely without hope that I do not have everything together.
What a lesson.
Roomie left a note on the kitchen counter the following morning on which the following verses were written:
Galatians 5:1 - It was for FREEDOM that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery.
Hebrews 12:2 - … let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, FIXING OUR EYES ON JESUS, the author and perfecter of our faith…
Isaiah 16:3 … You will keep him in PERFECT PEACE whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
It's really helpful for me to consider these things because I give off the vibe that I have everything together when I absolutely do NOT. I am realizing more and more and more that I am not strong enough to do well by all of the things that God has entrusted to me.
Early October:
October has already been filled with some awesome things. My boyfriend applied for his dream job and then went through a tumultuous period of thinking he had gotten the job, then being told he had not gotten the job, and then officially being offered the job - which he accepted! In the midst of it I've just been praying completely that God's will would be done and thanking God for giving him these incredible opportunities. It's been cool to see God work in my heart to make me truly want the best for him regardless of what it means for us and our relationship.
In addition to that, God's been placing girls I had never met in my life and swinging the door wide open to be helpful to them. One is a coworker of my boyfriend who grew up around religion but is finding herself denying it, yet wants to talk with someone about Jesus! Another is a girl who just moved to Austin; I'm not yet sure where she's at in life. These are awesome, exciting opportunities to represent Christ to people.
In the last week:
There are more lessons I want to share. Lessons of attempting to encourage. Lessons of appreciating my relationship and specifically my boyfriend for how he's reflected Jesus to me in spite of my sin. Lessons of managing my time and my money. More lessons than I can even write about in one sitting!
My prayer is that I can keep learning, keep growing, keep reflecting so that God's work isn't lost on me due to my forgetful nature. May I keep him at the forefront of my mind, seeking his face and his glory, and everything else in the proper perspective in that light!
Early September:
When I last posted, I was passing a kidney stone. I had the chance to reflect on that experience and can say that I am profoundly grateful for everything that came of it. There are so many little ways in which God showed me mercy -- that the stone was smaller than they had originally thought, that I got to take a few days off work, that this is not a "lie in bed" but rather "get up and walk around" kind of ailment, that so many people offered to love and take care of me.
The weeks that followed have been filled with more experiences and more lessons.
Late September:
I had a day that was the worst day in a long time --a morning just filled with non-stop anxiety where I was FIGHTING to fix my eyes on Jesus. I felt that I couldn't do it, I felt overwhelmed and exhausted, and to make matters worse, my boyfriend also had one of the worst days he had had in a long while too (which was a lesson in its own rite of encouraging when you're feeling you have nothing to give).
My roommate was a complete encouragement. She reminded me that Jesus is no stranger to my weakness. Not only did he humble me and save me at my weakest and most broken point (or else I would have had no recognition that I needed a Savior!), but as the perfect God-man he knew exactly what it was like to have a physical body that was exhausted. I can then turn to him and offer him all I have even IN my weakness instead of feeling completely without hope that I do not have everything together.
What a lesson.
Roomie left a note on the kitchen counter the following morning on which the following verses were written:
Galatians 5:1 - It was for FREEDOM that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery.
Hebrews 12:2 - … let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, FIXING OUR EYES ON JESUS, the author and perfecter of our faith…
Isaiah 16:3 … You will keep him in PERFECT PEACE whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
It's really helpful for me to consider these things because I give off the vibe that I have everything together when I absolutely do NOT. I am realizing more and more and more that I am not strong enough to do well by all of the things that God has entrusted to me.
Early October:
October has already been filled with some awesome things. My boyfriend applied for his dream job and then went through a tumultuous period of thinking he had gotten the job, then being told he had not gotten the job, and then officially being offered the job - which he accepted! In the midst of it I've just been praying completely that God's will would be done and thanking God for giving him these incredible opportunities. It's been cool to see God work in my heart to make me truly want the best for him regardless of what it means for us and our relationship.
In addition to that, God's been placing girls I had never met in my life and swinging the door wide open to be helpful to them. One is a coworker of my boyfriend who grew up around religion but is finding herself denying it, yet wants to talk with someone about Jesus! Another is a girl who just moved to Austin; I'm not yet sure where she's at in life. These are awesome, exciting opportunities to represent Christ to people.
In the last week:
There are more lessons I want to share. Lessons of attempting to encourage. Lessons of appreciating my relationship and specifically my boyfriend for how he's reflected Jesus to me in spite of my sin. Lessons of managing my time and my money. More lessons than I can even write about in one sitting!
My prayer is that I can keep learning, keep growing, keep reflecting so that God's work isn't lost on me due to my forgetful nature. May I keep him at the forefront of my mind, seeking his face and his glory, and everything else in the proper perspective in that light!
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